Heart Broken Over And Over Again - Blog Visitor Narrative.

heart Broken Over and over again?.....You can walk away from the person causing you that pain,you no go die!

THIS IS THE TRUE STORY OF BLOG VISITOR  M F**KMATE and the reason she has been dropping a count down comment on this blog.

Hello Aunty Stella. Am so glad for your reply and I pray that God will continue to strenghten and keep you and your loved ones... Am deeply sorry that I had to do that. Of course,it was a kind of revenge from me based on the heartbreak have been going through for some months now.. My real name is Vee and my story is a very long one.

 Mudina is the name of the guy in question,he's an artist who made his little fame

from the song ' like pami ft Vector...Actually, mudinah and I were good friends for good three years on facebook before I added him on Bbm. We became more closer when he discovered that am a model. Though,I never had any intention of having anything to do with him apart from just being in any of his upcoming shoot as a model vixen..

One day,he pinged me that he would love to see me one on one in order for us to get to know each other more better. I never minded cos my boyfriend and I just broke up all because I refused to have sex with him throughout our relationships(Aunty Stella, I got rape twice from my

previous relationship and I promised myself that I was not going to do that till I get the right n lucky man after he must have put a ring on it)... I was at home when he started pinging and calling my line about my visitation to his place.. I got to his house and was so happy to see him. I was scared taking the drink he offered me cos I never knew what he had in mind. 

To cut the story short, he looked at me in the eyes and started kissing me. I fell for it. He started pulling off my trousers for sex but I disagreed and told him to call his girlfriend if he needed it. That was how he went down on his knees and begged for me to become his girlfriend. he said that his girlfriend also broke up with him and left him for a richer dude but I gave him a NO and left... 

I got home n could not get him off my mind. I was falling for him. I called his No and told him that I changed my mind and was ready to give him a

yes.. That was how our relationship started and we had sex whenever he

requested for it.. After some months, everything about him changed,he would insult me and called me all sorts of names. I'll always apologise and call him even when he's at fault . Whenever I discover that he's not trying to oblige,I'll have to ask friends to help me and apologise... 

One day,after a month that we didnt talk,I fell sick and almost lost my life. I had the courage to text him that he should just try and see me before I die. He actually did call and ask me to see him days after and you can't believe that like a magic, I got healed immediately. I was so happy that day. Before going to his place on the good day, I called him that I was so close but he said I should have

told him before I left home. 

I got to his house and met another babe who eyed me and blocked me from watching TV before she left. She had a bad attitude towards me. I left and went to Mudinah's room where I saw her clothes scattered all over the bed even her bra but she later came in and arranged all cos she was about to go. Mudinah came in and said' Baby, am going in to drop my cousin,I'll be back in a jiffy". 

He approached me and wanted to kiss me but I pushed him away. You can't

believe that I didn't get T-fare home cos I guess he gave her all what he had,and when I asked for an explanation after I got home with my personal change,he started a quarrel with me and was like 'how da hell are we going to be together for long if you keep asking questions, get da fuck out of my line' that was how we started another fight again.

Aunty Stella, I love this guy so much and thinking breaking up with him was like digging my own grave despite the fact that he insults me,make jests of me to his friends and never gave me money to buy anything I needed apart from N1,500 he gives me as t-fare whenever I visited him.. That was how another misunderstanding ensued for another one month. We didn't talk to each other. Life wasn't easy for me without him. 

I cried everyday. Even my parent noticed that I wasn't myself. I got lean cos I wasn't eating and had a high temperature.Oneday,he just called me on phone and was like 'sweetie,am so sorry for all I said to you,can I come and pick you? I

miss you a lot. I answered and said' I miss u too but am not at home

at the moment but I'll come over in the next two days". I went to his

place the same day I promised. 

He went down his knees and begged me and I forgave him cos all that matter to me was seeing his face. Aunty Stella, I cried in my heart cos mudinah was so broke and had nothing in the kitchen. So I said 'Mudi can I get you like 10k cos you look broke to me'. He said 'I will be glad if you can'. Aunty stella,I didn't have more than 2k in my account cos I just bought some stuffs before then myself. But I was expecting 5k from my dad whom I lied to that we were been asked to do some things in school(am in my finals in school and am currently doing my IT here in Lagos,am sorry I lied that I was a graduate). 

The next day,I gave him some food stuffs like rice,beans,garri,maggi n onions n also promised to bring the money for him. After two days that he hasn't received the money,he started distubing me with calls and texts on facebook. I texted him back thathe should be patient with me as my atm was having some issues(I lied

to him cos I had just 2k in my account and was hoping on my dad). He didn't reply, so,I called but he shouted at me and said 'what da hell do you take me for? Hun! Fuck you n dn't ever fucking call my line'. 

I sent him all sorts of messages to apologise both on facebook and phone

but he never replied..I insulted him and called him a fool and a mofo for treating me badly,I also told him that I'll send the money but he shouldn't bother to thank me. The secound day,I sent him the N5k cos my dad later gave me the money but he didn't thank me as said( I still have the receipt with me and I promise to snap it and send to you when I get home cos am still on IT and will get home by 9pm due to the holdup in lagos).. 

I called him and texted him that I was sorry but he didn't reply nor picked my calls. The last time I saw him was 11th of August 2014. Aunty stella, God bear me withness, I am not a runs girl and never cheated on him, two of his other friends stay with him in a flat at Gemade estate at egbeda,whenever I visited him and saw his kitchen(which they all share together) including his room unkept, I

always make sure I do the needy. I would always makesure everywhere was

clean and I helped him folded his clothes neatly n do pick beans dirts in presence of his friends...

 The biggest shock of my life now is that he's currently disturbing my two friends who I gave his pin to cos one of them is a model and he wanted to shoot his video(that was about two weeks ago)he didn't even ask how they got his pin and yesterday that was his birthday,he pinged my friend to come over to his house and even called her love(I have the snap shot n I will send too).. 

This is a guy I love so much with everything in me. Till date, I haven't been

in any other relationship cos am so scared and I still love him so much and did so many things I can't even explain here. The more I try to forget about him,the more he keeps appearing in my dreams and ringing in my head. Am trying so hard to let him go but it's not working for me. 

I've just been myself all alone for a month now. I'll always advice ladies that being the best cook,tiding up his dirts and meeting his parent doesn't guarantee a proposal from him..(Ma'am I'll send the one of the pics we had together now. Please ma'am keep my identity anonymous) lots of love