Domestic Violence - Diary Of An Abused Wife....

This story broke me!...How does it get so bad?why are some people such animals in human skin?....WHY?

''Stella as I type this I have already given up on life. I comment with the name chiomasweets though not always only when posts relating my life issues are posted. I drop comments telling my experiences and Bloglord always does well to leave me a word of advice.

I really can't go over all that I have been through in the hands of the man I married because am sure if anyone should rate, I should take number one position on spousal abuse.

I haven't been able to eat or sleep for the past two days. Stella I am 31weeks pregnant due to deliver first week of may. So this is the recent happening. I went to my husband to ask him when I have to start buying the babies things and he asked me what babies things?

I said the new baby. He said is it not a boy u are having and our first child is also a boy what do u need new things for when he can use the things the first baby used. I explained to him how I have put all the things he will use from my first child together and how we need to buy little things like his cosmetics, towel, flask, toiletries, net bed that's all and also the things I will need for delivery at the hospital. Then he started laughing, I was confused and asked why he was laughing. He called me a thief and said I think I can deceive him and that I should come and collect the money na. 

Stella that's not the hurtful part oo. He also said I should better stop deceiving myself that he won't be stupid again to give any doctor 25k for delivery of a simple baby (his exact words cos that was what my first child hospital bill cost which he had to embarrass everyone before he paid). Na there fear catch me. He then said he knows a woman that delivers people

 of their babies for 5k and that whenever am ready he will call the woman to come n deliver me of my baby at home.

I was shocked to my bone marrows I couldn't move. I managed to get up n go to my room and I have been crying since then.

I can't seem to wrap my head around the whole thing. A woman that's not a doctor or a health practitioner coming to the house to deliver me of my child how is that ever going to happen? Are we going to say in the bathroom or in d corridor? Will I have to lie on the floor or stand or squat? What if something goes wrong? Is this my death?

It's not enough that this man beats me, has locked me out of the house before that I had to go and sleep in the chapel, starves me even in my pregnancy, he has denied me of every single affection a woman can get from her husband and now he wants to kill me.

Stella this man is not poor oooo. In fact if you come into my house you will think opposite of my story unless you enter the kitchen. He has two cars yet I can't touch any. It hurts me so much that in his world of plenty I have to suffer something as worse as hunger. He refuses that I work or do anything to support myself and my son.

What did I ever do to deserve this. The only thing he does is buy the baby's food and make sure my bis is always on once he notices am no longer active on BlackBerry he will recharge just to continue his endless snoops on my phone, looking for who I chatted with n what I have told anybody about him.

He refused that i go for antenatal simply because I have to renew the card I used for our first child.

He doesn't give me money for food or anything sometimes I go to bed without food sometimes I just pop corn with salt and drink water after eating it. In fact if I paint my life for you stella you will cry for me.

I feel like am living my last days stella because I don't know what to do. Please advice me I need words of encouragement please tell me what to do because the only thing I know to do now is praying harder and calling on God every minute. looking at my son with all the thoughts in my head even scares me the most......

If you feel the need to contact her,please do so directly.her email address is  chiomasweets@yahoo.com