STAND ALONE NARRATIVE
HAUNTING CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCE:
Dear Stella, thank you for this awesome platform. I stumbled on your blog about 3 years ago and I've enjoyed every moment although I rarely comment. I'll like you to share this in chronicles.
I had a shameful experience while growing up. I grew up living with my mother in a "face-me-I-face-you" house. That house was filled with all sorts of perverted people and children knew what s3x was at such tender age.
It all started when some of my playmates introduced me to the act. I did it with at least 5 of them. I was about 5 or 6 years then. We were just doing it as normal play. It happened frequently. I even tried it with some of my female friends as I didn't understand what it was.
There was even a guy in that house that constantly had s3x with his cousin that was about a year younger than me to the extent that the girl started enjoying it. The guy molested me once too. He told me to go to his room that he wants to send me on errand. He had s3x with me and it was painful. Afterwards he warned me that I must not tell anyone....and I didn't. My mother was usually not around when all these was happening, she used to leave me at home to play.
We later moved from that house when I was about 8 years old (which I'm grateful for because all those acts stopped ).
I had a sex drive which I started to satisfy by masturbating myself. When I became old enough to understand my past, I started to feel ashamed of the whole thing and decided to keep myself till marriage.
I'm 26 now and I've not had s3x with anyone ever since the "face-me-i-face-you" house. I have practised abstinence with my Ex-boyfriends. I avoid telling them my status (virgin or non-virgin). I would probably still be a virgin if it wasn't for my childhood experience. I still haven't told anyone about my experience.
I'm in a relationship now and my boyfriend asks about my s3x life and I avoid answering as usual. He's talking about marriage now and I wonder if I should tell him the whole story or part of it(that I was abused by the older guy)?
Please advice me as I'm running crazy. Boo thinks I'm a virgin because of how I've been avoiding the topic. To all parents out there, please monitor your children well, s3x education is important. There are too many perverts looking to take the innocence of kids.
*You need to discuss it with him cos if you leave him with the impression that you are a ''V'',his reaction after Marriage might be really bad...come clean and discuss it with him,after all you were just a child and it wasn't your fault.