OH MY GOODNESS!
STAND ALONE NARRATIVE..
WHEN LOVE BECOMES HATE IN A MARRIAGE.
I hate my husband with every bone in my body. I can't stand him next to me. He makes me feel lonely. He makes me hate my life.
I hate when we have sex feels like he's raping me, I'm always dry to the point I started thinking I had a problem. He just makes me feel so empty. He told me his prophet saw us getting a divorce, lately I have been really feeling like filing for divorce. I feel empty when I'm with him, I look at other man.
I crave the touch of another man, a manly man(I know it's a sin) but this is how I really feel. I am so tired. He So unromantic, he uses verbally abusive words to speak to me sometimes, i.e "I will punch your face, If I beat you enh...you will know me well." He even calls me fat(I put on weight after having two kids).
This so called husband of mine is a boy. I swear, I cry everyday regretting marrying him, he is so immature. He is 32 yrs old but still acts like a boy. I am so fed up with him. Two days ago, I tried telling him that I don't want to have sex with him anymore that we should live like friends for the sake of our two children, can you believe this boy said to me "oh, to me sex is all about going in and coming out, I don't have time for foreplay."
He has made me depressed,I hate my life whenever I think of him. He is selfish. I can't remember last time we went out or he did anything romantic. He is so immature and verbally abusive towards me. I am so fed up. I am thinking of moving out and then filling for a divorce.
We are about to get kicked of our house because of financial problems, do you know what this boy said to "why don't you work and pay bills, why depend on me." Stella, ever since I met I have been working and helping but this goat does not want to grow up. I am so fed up.
I am 26 yrs old and I feel I can still get my life together and get married again in the future. I am thinking of going back to my family house and start fresh. I know the kind insults I will have to put up with from my family is not for here but I am ready just so I can leave this goat. He I need advice. Where do I go from here?
Please be nice and sensitive with your advice.
Give me smart advice that can help me stand on my two feet. Thank you all and may God bless your homes.
*OMG..how did it get to this level?I am lost for words.i dont know what to say right now.I read the strong words,analysed your feelings and shock has numbed me...
I guess his being broke ass and not being able to cater for his family has also contributed to these feelings?
I am sorry darling but i may have to read comments too.Dont know what to advise right now.
You will be fine okay?Keep us updated.