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Evil Family Pattern


Hi Stella,

Good day to you, Stella. My post may be quite long because my story is like 2 in 1 but please bear with me.

Life was ok until when my dad died few years back in mysterious circumstances. He was intelligent, well-read, the breadwinner and the shining star of his family. He struggled to get a BSc and some intl professional qualifications whereas some of his siblings could barely pass WAEC. He won visa lottery about 20 years back but he got disqualified due to his village people at work. 

He had opportunities but most of them were wasted after telling his family members.


His siblings wanted a share of their father's properties, some of them were jobless and needed money but my father who was the firstborn refused as their father was still alive. They ganged up to kill him spiritually, and my father who never got sick had stroke, couldn’t walk and talk and was hospitalized multiple times. All these within the space of one year till he eventually died.would you believe my father and my grandfather who wasn’t sick at all died one week apart? 

Strange right?

That was just the beginning. I can’t begin to say all we went through. After his death, not even a visit from his siblings. Everyone abandoned us. He tried his best to build a house before he died to no avail. One of his lands in a good place in Lagos was sold by omo onile to someone else without his knowledge. It was after he died, we realized this and a house was already built on it.

 My mother didn’t help as she wasn’t so supportive to my father in sharing expenses even though she was working and earning good pay. she is the type who doesn’t mind spending all her money to buy clothes, bags, and shoes just to look good and get attention. She spent money on expensive clothes, phones, and unnecessary things and didn’t have savings as my father was doing almost everything. even when my father bought lands for her before he died, she sold them and spent the money. 

I am lucky that 2 of my siblings had graduated and I was also rounding up school when my father died.We are not close to my mother's side either as my mother and her siblings are not really on good terms.



Because he was a govt official till his death, we stayed in staff quarters and even after his death, we were allowed to stay for some years as we expected his gratuity and pension.Till today, I can’t say how my mother spent all the money. Everything went in a flash. She kept spending on irrelevant things for herself. If you try to talk to her, she gets angry and starts abusing you. with the few articles I have read about narcissism, I feel she is one.



Stella, sometimes I regret having her as my mother, she didn’t show us enough love especially to me. Maybe I wasn’t so smart when I was younger like my siblings because my mother just hated me. I never did anything good in her eyes. she would use abusive words and this affected my self-esteem even up till now. I never felt I was beautiful until I got into university. even with all my father was doing then, she always spoke in bad ways about him to her friends and neighbours saying he was stingy.


The main problem now is the things we complained about my father’s family is beginning to happen and I feel it will get worse when we all get married. We can go for weeks without talking to each other. we are four siblings(2 boys and 2 girls), I and my sister are not close. We have never had that sister bond that most sisters have and it pains me. she is always distance, never calls or checks up on you unless she wants something. 

She is very secretive about herself but if you tell her something, she will help broadcast it to the world. I am closer to my elder brother but he is married and not in the country. She is the eldest and unmarried, she stays in a 3 bedroom apartment all alone, she likes her space, my mother stays alone too while I and my younger brother stay together. I got tired of staying with my mother because we were always quarreling and I had no peace of mind.


It’s so bad that I can’t just stay over at her place (my sister’s) without a tangible reason and even if I do, I am constantly walking on eggshells as every little thing I do gets her angry. I usually don’t spend more than 2 days max as her attitude can get overbearing. I think she is also a narcissist.


Now I and my brother need to move from where we are as it is quite expensive but its hard as I don’t have a job to assist in rent. was thinking my sis could assist but she says no money. even if she would say we should manage with her for some time, that would definitely go a long way but my sister will rather have her friends or even strangers stay with her than her blood.


The past few weeks has made me so unhappy and wishing I had my own family, husband, and children.I just feel there is no love in my family and we are just managing our feelings.

Stella, I am at a point of depression, frustration and loneliness, I just want to leave this world after all nobody will miss me.

Out of my siblings, I am the only one without a job. all the rest are doing okay. I am smart and I have a masters degree. My birthday is in a few weeks but I am hoping either a miracle happens by then or maybe God should take me away.

I am in my 30s now, no husband, no boyfriend, no child, no toaster, no job, no money, no friends, and now it's seeming like no family too. people say I am beautiful but I have never had a serious relationship all my life. Unavailable men who just want to take advantage and sleep with me are always the ones attracted to me. I have never felt true love from guys the way they give other girls. I give out love but always get heartbroken in return. when I hear stories of girls taking advantage of good guys, I'm like God just give me a good guy like this.none of the relationships have lasted more than 3 months. Infact, I am beginning to think love isn’t for me and if I will ever marry but I desire children. I am the good girl type and sometimes I wish I wasn’t.


I am beginning to think that there is a curse on me and also in my family.

Please I need help before I drink sniper out of frustration. And as for prayers, yes I have been praying, I am just tired of everything. Forgive me for any typos.

Thanks a lot. Please hide my identity::::

*Even in all hopelessness,there is something about that name JESUS!!!...Try and call unto him and the peace you will feel will be compard to none...I dont even know what to say but you need Jesus to fix this and not a human..

If you commit suicide,you will be condemned forever...think about it...