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SPIRIT OF ENVY AND JEALOUSY
Hmmn. I am dealing with something a have never in my life taught I would ever deal with. I am dealing with the spirit of envy and jealousy especially against someone I would literally die for. My beloved sister. I have tears writing this.
I am a 35 year old woman in love with a man is breadcrumbing so much it hurts. Being that we are not so young and my sister(older )is single she encouraged me to please be manage at least one of us in a relationship hoping for marriage.Recently she met a wonderful man who treats her like a Queen and their official anniversary falls on the day that would have been the day of my first anniversary with my man.
An ever since that I find myself crying whenever I see her treated so well. It hate this feeling because I know how much I prayed for her. She is my sister. I remember there was a time I prayed to God if it was only one of us he could bless he should bless her. And I would be fine.
Now why has the devil stolen my joy. I find myself comparing myself. It doesn’t help that I have no friends and financially not ok and I live with her.
I don’t know what to do with my life. By the grace of God everything goes well(he’s very serious )they get married I don’t know how I’ll go about my living situation and my life and all I hate that the devil has planted this evil seed in my heart after we have prayed for years for this. They talk all day sends her food takes good care of her.
I want to be so happy for without having being sad for myself. It feels like I’m fighting two wars. I feel bad for myself and I hate myself for feeling this way about someone I love so much. I hate that I am even capable of this emotions I keep begging the Holy Spirit to erase these thoughts and feelings but everyday is a struggle.
Please people pray for me. If you know prayers and bible verses I can that will help me defeat the demon please share I have been fasting, praying at night to conquer this temptation but I’m stuck....
Please people pray for me. If you know prayers and bible verses I can that will help me defeat the demon please share I have been fasting, praying at night to conquer this temptation but I’m stuck....
I really dont understand so let me read the comments...
Your tenses made it very difficult to comprehend and digest, but from the few takes: I will advise you to stop harbouring such evil thought whenever it encroaches your space.
ReplyDeleteYou are in charge of how you want to feel, and shouldn't make yourself a willing tool for the devil to exploit.
Dodo.
Regards.
We all have different lives and destiny. I think you have so mirrored her life that you now subconsciously compare both and it's started affecting your reasoning. Why don't you take a break from the home you both share? Visit someone and while away,intentionally debug yourself of whatever has eaten up your heart so badly. All the best but remember, prayers alone won't work if you are not intentional about this new you.
DeleteOh dear!!
ReplyDeleteIt's a good thing you have acknowledged that this is a problem! Please continue praying about it, you can type on Google "prayers to be delivered from the spirit of envy and jealousy"
Secondly you need to be cultivate the habit of being genuinely happy for others, as this can also open doors for you.
All the best
Consider this your reminder that you’re a human being
ReplyDeleteHer success is shining a light on what you’re missing
You’re not terrible. You’re just unhappy
This is it!
DeleteI will add your insecurities with your life developments are for you to take care of. Selfishness is sometimes the best thing a person can do for themselves. Keeping your eyes looking inward instead of outwardly focused on others allow for you to fix yourself before things get to a point where you have to become jealous. This is how life should be lived. Selfishness doesn’t mean not helping others or craving for self and depriving others, it means self focused. Stop looking at your sister and her life comparing and desiring what she has and start looking at your own life and fixing the things that make you unhappy.
this is the last stage before you become a witch abi witch craft.
ReplyDeletethe best way to come out of this is to discuss this with your sister and your man, how can you be so jealous of your sister's happiness or because a man is more caring with your sister than you? you don't know the stress of pains your sister is secretly dealing with but you are only seeing the nice gift or care the man shows your sister. Never you wish to be like anybody not even you sister because you do not know the pain or secret one is carrying around.
You have to continue praying and even speak with your parents so that you both can find solution to your witch craft attitude before you harm your sister out of jealousy. Something that you should be happy for her and pray all goes well and God should bless you with your own good man or gift. You allowed desperation to push you into accepting a man that is not what you want instead of you to be patient and wait for the right man.
I honestly don’t think the sender will become a witch. She is a healthy person for recognizing that she has a problem and seeking help. Witches view themselves as perfect and anything that they do to get what they want no matter how evil is acceptable.
DeleteSometimes you comment like a witch yourself
DeleteShe hates to feel this way about her sister. She's envious. It's a bad spirit pls look for a genuine man of God to pray for you. Pls don't harm your sister just look for money and move out
ReplyDeleteMan of God sha
DeleteNot really hate but comparison but it's good she acknowledged the discomfort from her sister relationship.
DeleteIt is in most of us but Christ subdue the urge and we build our faith and trust by acknowledging the testimony we desire is around to happen, what God does for one he does to all, the Angel that led her right is about to led you right too.
In addition, the economy is enough to hate especially if one is not rich or average.
I work as an adhoc Staff since 2021, an opportunity came they employed from outside excluding the adhoc in the institution, I nearly became bitter lemon.
Hmmmm! This is serious ooo, you probably had envy and jealousy in you all this years but didn't know, now it's manifesting. But don't allow it push you to doing any evil to your sister or their relationship. Continue to pray sincerely against it and God will answer you. When you are not genuinely happy for another's happiness how do you intend to get yours? force yourself out of that wicked emotion before it consumes you.
ReplyDeleteLies!!!!!
DeletePrivate Holy Communion to the rescue - John 6:56-57
ReplyDeleteDear poster, you are not a bad person. You wish you could have what she has. You don’t resent her. You are not wishing her evil. You just feel sad that you don’t have the same. That’s human. Jealousy and envy is when you are praying for things to go wrong in her relationship. And you are not hoping for that, right?
ReplyDeleteJust focus on making your life better. Let this be your driving force. If she can help you, get a job and move into your own place. Work on aspects of your life that you are not happy about. It is well
Thank you oh. What you are feeling is not jealousy or envy. It is called self pity. You are happy for her, but sad for yourself. You don't harbour any bad feelings towards her. What you need to do is to stop comparing your life with hers, always remember that everyone's journey is different.
DeleteDear Poster
ReplyDeleteAll is well. God loves you and He will remember you too.
Be thanking God.
You're struggling because maybe you think God will not do your own - instead please see your sister's testimony as evidence that there are men who love women well and your own hubby who loves you well will also come for your hand in marriage!
Scriptures that can help are: none shall lack their mate - isaiah 34:16
Psalm 138:8 - God shall perfect that which concerns me
Psalm 37:4 - delight yourself in the Lord and God shall give you the desires of your heart
Romans 8:32 - if He has freely given us His son, how much more will He freely give us every thing after giving us His Son
No need to be jealous or envious anymore, your own is coming.
Be thanking God that has done it for your sister and be thanking Him in advance that He will do your own too.
No need to dwell on negative thoughts that you dont have a nice partner like your sister - focus on the positive. God will also bless you, He loves you sis. Come back and share your testimony when it happens
Blessings dear.
Dear poster please move out of your sister’s house. Find a way abeg
ReplyDeleteI feel for this writer, please before this emotion overwhelm you kindly look for a counsellor and if you cannot afford a counsellor for now, please go online and goggle how you can overcome negative emotions.
ReplyDeletePlease do not leave out the place of God - I pray the evil spirit to depart from your life in Jesus name - Amen.
You are not a bad person.
ReplyDeleteit takes courage and truth to admit that you are being envious and jealous of your sister.
It is very isolating, and at the same time a shame inducing experience to feel left out.
But do not allow it becloud your sense of self.
Your sister needs to know certain truths from you. You should discuss your fears with her and speaking to a psychologist can also be a great idea. therapy will help you heal and find value in yourself.
It is so important to individuate and understand how unique you are, so you don’t continue to envy your sister's seemingly perfect life or love life. per se. whichever one.
Nothing wrong with you, I catch myself comparing my life with my older sibling whose are better than mine. This is what you should do: Highlight your blessings / winning every time that happens and thank God vigorously for them.
ReplyDeleteThe bottom line is that you are not happy in your relationship. Break up with him and give yourself the chance to meet the kind of person you desire. Tell your sister how you feel which is only the symptom. The underlying cause is subpar relationship.
ReplyDeleteThere is a book by Briana Weist, This is how you heal. Look for it in your city.
ReplyDeleteAgain, Look for The Mechanics of standard English. Bidemi Gbadamosi. You can reach him on Facebook.
ReplyDeleteThe only thing you can do is to continue praying for her good soon the feelings will cease it is the devil .And the good Lord that says love and pray for one another will locate you
ReplyDeletePoster please don’t let anybody tell you that you are a bad person. You recognize that what you feel is not really healthy and you actually want to check it before it gets out of hand, which is better than what a lot of people castigating would do in your shoes.
ReplyDeleteYour feelings are valid! Most people here, if they’re looking for children would feel bad whenever they get the news that someone else gave birth, not because they wish them bad but because it shines a light on their own situation. So why will we act like your own case is different?
I don’t have much advice for you except:
1. Keep praying to God to change your situation, he should not leave you in a situation that will push you to sin
2. Please don’t keep holding on to a bad relationship. Please. I swear to you that it is better to never have been married at all than to end in a bad marriage. Life is showing you signs now, please take them seriously.
If your relationship is not giving you joy, please leave it and give room for the kind of man you want to enter.Take whatever troubles your heart to Jesus in prayers, you will feel better
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