This feeling kept growing stronger everyday. 'Abi na karma from that brother wen I been serve breakfast in SS3? 🤔.' Walahi I did that boy strong thing. 😓

That's how I carried my phone and started bombarding the brother with apology calls and texts. This brother who had moved to another location decided to run me street Everyday na ''My love borrow me small money make i fix my motor wey just spoil' 'Babe my grandpa is sick, money for his meds.' 'send me tfare to come and visit you' . But he never showed up Money money money. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I kept sending from the little I had . He don give up on love kpatakpata nah, after I did him strong thing during our puppy love days so baba want do payback. Lol 😂 A few months later, the strike was called off in 2020, lockdown was lifted, schools reopened and I resumed. 0ne morning I attended a class and the lecturer was a doppelganger of my eldest Brother of blessed memory. (PBUH) I loved loved and still love this my brother so very much that seeing his look alike was an automatic coupe de foudre. Ahn ahn⁉️ Abi na my late Brother go mature and fresh for that side finish, come come back as lecturer? Even as a backbencher, I hustled for seat that day. ⏩ 👉

I finally sat in front to take a proper look at this Being. When he turned to explain something to the class and I looked at his face, my heart started beating like it'd never done before 💣 💓💖 📳 Ooooh! Something in me suddenly said "He's THE ONE" Instantly, I developed one strong irresistible urge to walk up to him and plant a hot kizz on his lips.

'God!'

'Wetin be this?'

I mentally shouted Holy Ghost fire! I cast and bind. Everything now became calm

Minutes later, this same feeling returned, but this time it was accompanied by a LOUDDDD 🔊 📢📣 female voice saying 'Mejhay you no go stand up now and go and kizz 💋 your man bah Hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm? '. 🔉🔊

Fada Lawd!

Jesus Christ!

That was how I sneakily left the class halfway through the lecture. I got home and told my friend that one uncle did me ojuju Calabar. But as usual, she only laughed at me and said ' you and your endless new versions of ogbanje stories'. We both laughed .

Everything he taught that day still dey my head reach today I went to bed that very night and it was me and him in different dreams. And I mean sweet sweet dreams👩‍❤️‍👨 After that day, I no come dey see this person for school again 👉

until we were writing one test and he was among the invigilators. Immediately he saw me, he walked up to me at the back back where I sat and started interrogating me.

In my mind I was like, you wey I don dey find since? Today na today I go answer all your questions 💃😘

Though I kept a frowny face while answering him so that he go think say I no send am. He asked questions like "who are you?, what's your name and level? Have you ever seen me before, and how many times? " when I said I'd seen him before, he asked 'then how come I'm just seeing you for the first time. I know all my students. I hope you're not impersonating someone?' Before I go answer hi other questions, one ekwensu from the other hall beckoned to him and he left 😭. His voice during the questioning ehn 💋 After that day too, I stopped seeing him in school yet again because the course he taught was being handled by him and another lecturer. Days later, we the new students were to queue up and submit our files at one office, unknown to me it was his office. When it was my turn, I went in and stood close his table, the sweet feeling was completely different 😘

👉👉

It felt like home 🏠

He flipped through my file then suddenly paused and looked me straight in the eyes for a while.

I was too shy to reciprocate the look which I ended up smiling sheepishly 😊 🥰 .

He finished and passed me my file and I left.

I still no come see am again until we finished our exams and school closed.

I sha codedly made a few findings and was told he was the only remaining single lecturer. When I got to know his full name, I realised that almost all the letters in my name were in his. His surname sounds almost like that of my late mum, just one letter difference. And again, our birthdays are only 2 days apart. I'm sure he also saw all of it that day at his office during the file episode. Reason for the stare. He also attends the same denomination my late Brother ported to before his demise.

My brain that time =🥳 🎉 🎊 🥂 💒 💍👰‍♀️🤵‍♀️🚼🚼

I became completely smitten and I was convinced that he was the person the universe had been preparing me to meet all along. 🦋

So what did I do ? I blocked the beggy beggy brother, his family and friends plus his future neighbors wey get my contact because I don finally see where the arrow 💘 dey point .

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Imagine, even the beginning begi boy mama sef started borrowing money from me at some point. Good riddance.

This lecturer dey my mind all day, and when it's night and I go to bed, he's there in my dreams . Always my first thought once I wake up and my last before I sleep.

Everywhere go,I must see 2, 3, or more things to remind me of him. I got busier and also started doing things I never did just to quench the fire ❤️‍🔥 inside me.

School resumed. I went to school that day and he was the first person I saw. 😌

That day I had seen him first from a distance before he could see me. When he eventually saw me from afar too, he jerked real hard like he'd seen ghost. He then bent a little and held his chest with one hand.

I been think say he dey hiccup or he want sneeze. Meanwhile I pretended I hadn't seen any of it. He approached and I greeted him, he slowly responded.

After that day I started bumping into this Man nonstop. Even when I changed routes and followed roads with poto poto, I must jam am there. In town nko? 🤦‍♀️🙆‍♀️ It was always a face to face kind of bumping

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Mostly the kind where the two people no go see each other coming from a distance, until they're almost chest to chest. Chai

Sometimes I go greet am, other times I go use style dodge am stay one corner and admire the Lord's handiwork 😋. Cos man is fine for days and my soul yearns for him ☯️☯️☯️ every minute. In all of this, I avoided eye contact with him.

I stalked his socials wetin no good. I go just dey kiss his pics on my screen until one day my mind said 'madam keep lurking and mumuing you hear? One day you go see his fresh wedding pics and you go rest😛' ...

Oh well. 😞

Oh well 😭

I continued hiding in corners in school and staring at him whenever he walked past. But as the universe would have it, there was a korokoro caught one day.

That sunny day I was walking on a long road within the school premises. This was a road that was usually busy. But that particular day, it was eerily empty. Just cool breeze and birds chirping. I was listening to Tr@vis Scott's Stargazing 🎧 I didn't sight him coming. Suddenly, the lower part of my neck started itching and I bent to scratch it while still walking. (Normally whenever an opp, a car or just anything else wey fit cause accident or makes my heart beat faster is approaching me when I'm carried away, my inner being always alerts me on time like 'hey watch it ', but HARDLY ever for where this man dey)

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When I finished scratching and lifted my head, lo and behold, this man was right in front of me, face to face, eye ball to eye ball.

Jeeeeeeeez! Abi he fall from the sky ni?🙆‍♀️ 🤯 😲 I jerked like I had seen a ghost.

At that moment he had this corpse like appearance. Moju powder - like.

Oh mon Dieu‼️😱

Everything happened so fast it felt like I had gone into a trance. Then his eyes suddenly dilated 👀 👁️ 👁️ and I saw this ocean like waves 😵‍💫 in them. It looked like a dark whirlpool . You know that dark shadow stuff that appears in the eyes 🫨 in Legend of the Seeker when someone is being confessed? Ehen. That was almost exactly what I saw in his eyes.

I been even think say maybe na rapture. I just stood one place like a statue while gazing at him. I couldn't move or look away, no matter how hard I tried because my feet were stuck to the ground like wetin them pour Superglue.

Some unseen force then held my neck tight, focusing my eyes on his. I want greet am but my mouth opened and
refused to close due to too much shock. I kept gasping for air

He was still going his thing o, but kept turning back once once looking at me, then he started blushing abi smiling sheepishly 😊 🥰😍

I want cress, I want pick race but my leg don gidigba for ground. Felt like "shebi you dey always hide look am, today you must enjoy a full gaze 😛."

After a little while I regained consciousness and I walka fast fast and enter one office that always had AC on. The oga of the office was asking me 'madam why are you breathing fast fast like this?' I said motor nearly jam me o. The oga now gave me cold minerals to drink and calm donnn.

While I was relaxing and sipping the chilled drink, I became awakened and it dawned on me that I had found my TWIN FLAME. My mind also told me then that, he had also seen the dark shadow stuff in my own eyes that day at his office the moment he looked into my eyes after he saw the birthday/similarities in our names. I stopped attending his classes o because anytime I neared him, my body dey shake too much. Coupled with the magnetic pulls and the strong feeling of rushing to kizz him.

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I don cry and
pray, remain for me to wear sack and roll inside ashes just for this feeling to leave me alone. But it goes away temporarily only to rebound 2 times stronger. Now I'm stuck. Sometimes I feel his presence in my room. When it gets worse, it feels like I'm seeing him from the corner of my eye, like he just walked past. To the glory of God I managed the turbulence and graduated last year. Now there's one signature I need on my documents before I can proceed for NYSC. To my surprise he's now the one occupying the office where the signing is done. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ If I hear say I sign am 🙂‍↔️ . Make I go faint for person office keh? And it's impossible to send someone else to help me sign it. Now my course mates are happily warming up for NYSC while I'm still here. 😭 🙆‍♀️

Something STRONGLY tells me he's one of those silent BVs.

Like this now , my plan is to go and sign that document in the next 10 years because maybe by then he go don retire, or even travel abroad never to return and another person go don take over the office and I go sign my paper in peace. Imagine loving someone so much and knowing they also do, but two of ona cnt have each other. 😖🤕

This has been my heavy cross since 2019. Sad 😢

Make I go listen to Pray for me by The Wēeknd and Kēndrick Lamar

Can't believe I read all of this. Pheeeeeeew. I was just eagerly waiting to read at the end where you'll say "and I woke up from a dream?" So all these really happened? You mean for four years you held on to this feeling for a lecturer? No male student caught your attention or approached you? Wow!!! Was he that young? So many questions to ask, but I don't want to even get started.

Nice read, though.

You really sound like a lovable person and a sucker for love.


©️ TEEJAY

Hmmm,Mehjay babes😘what an interesting lonnngg read
Nawaoo,na only you waka come today 🤣🤣🤣 chim
Abegi go sign the stuff joor and prepare for your NYSC before Federal government change mind as dey wan scrap am 🙄🤣🤣🤣

Hehehe😅 ABIO babes Weldon oo, match do come for Abio mk she enjoy her gorontula nah😅😅😂