Why do people allow others or stuff that happens bring them down?stand up and walk away from whatever is pulling you down!
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LONELY;DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL
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Am a young girl of 22 ,Everything seems not to be right in my life ,I don't want to complain but it's frustrating and am depressed.
Am from a very strick family ,as of 16 years old I was already done with my ssce ,I was one of the Bright student ,I was thinking maybe next year I will gain admission ,I wrote jamb 3times but it didn't work ,my post utme result was sold and the other school refuse to give me admission so I was thinking maybe God is answering my prayers cause I didn't want to school in naija and was waiting for a miracle , so I looked for a sales girl work cause am very hardworking ,and I love having my own personal money.
I applied into a poly and i was accepted ,i met a guy where I was working as a sales girl who took advantage of me at the age of 19, got me pregnant and actually threatened to kill me and the baby if i dont abort it , i couldnt tell my parents cause they were too strick and they probably gonna kill me without even asking me anything.
he carried me down to the lab forced me to do the D and C , stella i saw hell on earth ,all my body was cold but i was sweating ,the pain was too much i taught i will die ,after everything he left , then called me and told me he doesn't want anything to do with me , I cried my heart out ,I wanted to die the pains ,the blood I loosed and my baby not forgetting the heart break cause I really liked this guy . so I concentrated on school without thinking about anything but I was really messed up ,I tried to pull myself together but it wasnt easy ,cause every night is crying night.
I really don't make friends ,am this quiet type that keeps everything to herself but when am around people I laugh ,gist like no tomorrow , Stella the thing Now is that am 22 now am done with my ND program but got 1 extension due to the fact that I refuse to block my courses , am lonely I don't have friends ,and I've not been in a relationship for more than 1 month ,its like am cursed ,am a very nice girl that likes giving even if its my last kobo ,everything now its frustrating me and am depressed ,every time I always think of ending my life but when I just think of my mom I will just cooled down cause my dad is even adding salt to it ,he frustrates me even more tells me am a disgrace to him cause I told my mom that am no more a V and my mom reported to my dad.
I will not say am tired of this life ,but I just want to be better , now am thinking of restarting my educational next year I will be 23 by then(that's if jamb gives me the admission) ,my elder two siblings finished school at the age of 22 ,but here I am at the age of 23 getting to start all over ,my younger ones are still gonna write jamb next year with me ,and I cant stop thinking of that . I've prayed but its like God is not answering , my love life is zero ,no friends ,no job,sometimes I feel am cursed.
I try my best to be around people cause if am alone I only think and cry ,my parents don't know how I feel ,I don't talk to my siblings about it cause they will use it to insult me when we have any issues ,nobody seems to understand,all the guys coming around me just wants sex and am sick and tired of them .
please Stella am pouring out my heart here cause i kept it inside for too long and its killing me pls bvs I need advice on what to do , cause am confuse I never taught my life would be like this .
Am sorry for the long write up.
Am sorry for the long write up.
*Awwww i am so sorry you feel this way..you will be fine,just make sure you GO BACK TO SCHOOL and get your tenses right okay?Get a stronger degree,get a good job and watch everyone lick your feet.
Dont let the mistakes you made guide you,okay`?