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This is so sad!

STAND ALONE NARRATIVE

OH MY GOD!!!

Aunty Stella, thanks for this platform. I really need your advice and from my fellow blog visitors.
I will just go straight to the point 

I am in my early twenties,still in the university. I had no hope of going to the university until I met this guy three years ago. He will be 31 by June.He is so nice and caring and loves me like crazy. When I got admission to a private university,i knew that my family does not have that kind of money, yet he stood by me, has been the one paying my fees plus catering for everyone in my family,my younger sister is also in the same school,thanks to him.

 So,when he asked me to marry him in 2015,i agreed because I knew he loved me, and was willing to do so till the end of time. I loved him for being nice and for understanding and when I tell him I hate cooking, he cooks anytime I'm home for these year; I have even learnt entering kitchen all day.(lol). Even when I told him I can't marry him because he is short and I am way taller, he laughed and said our kids will be tall. 

Yet I married him..

 Stella, he was just too nice. We had our traditional marriage in December 2015, was supposed to do the white wedding early 2016,but my school fees was increased and being that he caters for everyone in their family despite being the second son plus my family,we decided to shift the wedding till the upper year.
Now, a lot has happened since last year. And that's where my problem started. I was raped and gotten pregnant. The way he handled it when I told him was just surprising... 

He said I should keep it, that he does not want me to die from abortion, and all that, I convinced him after crying and begging,he agreed. He was there for me during that trying time, I went to hell and came back, he was just praying and crying with me until I recovered.

 The way and manner he changed from good to over good was just something else. He lives in Abuja, and my school is in the East,yet we talk like we are very close. Abandoned the building of his house in the village because my school fees and family is taking the whole money, even when his salary is below 300 hundred thousand naira. He now insist we are getting married this August and wants me to start plans,but anytime he brings it up, I buff it off. 

Stella, I feel I can't manage a home,i feel I can't give him kids, I feel I don't love him again,i feel I don't want to continue,i feel used,i feel it was my fault I was raped plus pregnancy. The worst part is that we stopped having sex after that incident because anytime he comes for it, unconsciously I will start screaming and shouting. And he will start crying and consoling me. I feel I am not going to be the right woman for him if I walk down the aisle. Help me Biko. Am I just being immature or what?
Aunty Stella help me,use different pens I need help.

Oh my darling...you need help and counselling..oh dear oh dear!!!.

Please leave whatever advice you have here for her,I dont know if it is a good idea giving out her email address cos it bears her name.....