Chronicle Of Blog Visitor Narrative -UPDATE

Oh Dear!!!

Stella,


I posted a Chronicle sometimes in 2018. Can't really remember topic but it was about strained relationship with a supposed mother. And whether I should visit her or not. This is a sort of update though long. Please bear with me. 


This is the issue. She curses her children. I don't know the effect of mother's curse but it has not been rosy with us. When her marriage packed up with my dad she abandoned all three of us she had. I started feigning for myself from age, 14. Even while in secondary school, never looked for me. I was living as house maid for someone who is still my mentor till today. But my 2 siblings turned out very bad. Older One killed herself out of frustration. I trained myself through Univ and made a success of my life. 

I then went back to look for my brother and told him to leave village and join me in 2007. He refused saying I want to make house boy out of him. I left him to his fate till today.


I am a fine woman, though not married and no child in my 40s, I am grateful to God for life and sustaining me. My brother also in his 40s not married and no child is even jobless with no qualification of any kind as he refused to take his studies serious when I put resources to train him and so was rusticated. He blames it on witchcraft. 


For over 25 years I was not in touch with mother and she never looked for me until 2018, I posted here that I wanted to go visit her in the village as I heard her situation was pitiable. Many people here advised me not to go and to cut off. I do send her money and some food stuff from time to time but I couldn't bring myself  to accept her as mother. Her curses and wickedness were acidic. 


Even while writing my Waec exam, she used read Biro to write me a stinker that I will be a laughing stock amongst my peers as I was reporting her to my Dad. I showed the letter to my principal who was shocked and sent for my Dad but he refused to go saying he does not want any child from her womb. 


How do you place curses on your children on the slightest provocation and you want her to cater for you ?Beating breast, laps, stomach, pouring cooking salt on your children saying it will never be well with them. That they will pursue them out of husband house as they pursued her out if they ever marry . How do you wish your children dead? That God should not allow daughter marry because she will not allow husband care for her. What a mother!!! I did not take these curses serious but I can relate now. I have given up on marriage but I have a good job which I don't let her know. I send money to her when need be and she has never asked if I am working. All she is interested is what she can get from me. I assist with her rent. 

She is now old and lives all by herself in a dilapidated house. I went to see her March, b4 lockdown. Very odd situation. No bonding whatever. I was in a hotel.
And she never asked for forgiveness. Nobody to help out in the family. Reaping what she sowed! 


But yesterday, she called me by 6 am telling me that she is disturbed, that she heard a voice in her sleep or dream telling her to remove the curses she placed on her children. And pray for them. Don't forget we are 2 now. And my jobless brother hardly visit her. I used the opportunity to tell her my mind. That She never looked for me for years cause she was working. She did not have need for me. 

She never knew life will treat her like this at old age. Diabetic and living alone at 76yrs, no relatives, no grand children. She then said I should come home maybe to lay hands on me. I told her I cannot come. This is a critical period. End of year. 


But this morning she called over the phone and prayed to remove those curses. She accepted that she really cursed her children instead of blessing them. I am scared what will happen if God calls her. I can't stand lying in state. She used to say she doesn't want me to see her face when she is called. 
Sometime ago, I told her since I know nothing about her, she can help write down her autobiography. She said, anybody wishing her dead should die before her. Hmmmmmm!!!!


House, please how do this curses work? The effect? She still said there is something she will tell us, but not now. Why not say it now that you are still breathing? Time is not on our hands. 


Is this last minute prayer genuine and of any effect or its just eye service cause of financial assistance? I don't know what to make of it, though I kept saying Amen as she was praying. I am not having it very smooth in life. Disappointment, depression, hard luck. And I am worried about my own old age too. 


House, what do you think? 

Reading this again eh,I think your mum has serious mental issues and i hope that it is not hereditary....She is not doing this because she wants to but because she is torn apart by bitterness and wickedness and then her head is not in the right state it should be......Please i beg you,reach out to her and do what you can to enable her relax or remove the curses...Go and release also your own unforgiveness towards her so that you can be free........Hopefully your next update will be better than this one!

Good luck my dear