Singer Timaya wrote: "There's something I've been battling for a long time, I don't know what to do about it, I'm not a guy that normally comes out to talk, but I've been battling ENJOYMENT, for a very long time."

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I checked on google to know about battling with something and entered in battling with enjoyment and gave me this...
''To battle with something means to struggle against it or find it hard to deal with .
So if someone says they’ve been “battling with enjoyment,” it means they’re struggling to allow themselves to enjoy things because maybe they feel guilty, restless, or unable to relax even when life offers pleasure.
It’s an emotional tug of war and another way to say “I’m finding it hard to be happy or carefree.”