Please forgive me if my blogging is slow today and forgive me if i am dull.If i write LOL,dont believe me.
Last year January,my mum in law was planning a big party for her 80th but a few weeks into February,she suffered a stroke and went into Coma,whilst in coma,she suffered a heart attack and spent over three months in Coma.
My kids were traumatised,everyone was and i watched my hubby who is her last child go very quiet and not say a word about what was happening.
She has been at home recovering and every time I visited,the light in her eyes and that special smile for me was awesome.
This week she had a relapse and everything is going down...The Doctor said to leave her at home for her last moments.....This Morning we got a call and my sis in law said she is in her final moments and to come but not bring the kids....My boys cried before they left for school cos I told them their Oma was going.
My parents in Law live in their own house a few streets from mine and I am just coming from there *sigh* and all i can say is that in Death beauty and ugly are the same,so those of you who love beauty, the outside of a person,please,get a new mindset.
My mum in law had three boys and one female and my hubby is her last.She crossed her Tee's and dotted her eyes and all her kids are successful..she put her home in order but its time to go and her body is fighting to go but she loves us so much she is fighting to stay.
Her Oxygen is shutting down and her fingers have turned blue...I dont know how long she has but I know that she is heaven bound becos of how she lived her life...Now her Candle is going out and she has to answer the call.
Shocking for me especially cos it feels like I am losing my mother all over again.I have lost my smile and I cried like a baby this morning when i stood before her,my hubbys older brother was making jokes and trying to get me to smile but i couldnt stop...
Those of you who cry and worry about tomorrow,live whatever life you have and make merry.Be happy for today and forget about tomorrow.
I love that woman and everything i know about babies and kids,she taught me.
I am on alert,I dont know when she will go but i will go back later in the afternoon to say goodbye again.
I guess it is easier when you hear someone has died than to watch them going,it is a frightening and shocking experience....
Forgive any errors,my hands are shaking and i wont edit.