STAND ALONE NARRATIVE
A DIRTY PAINFUL WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE
I don't know if this is chronicles worthy,let me drop this here,since beloved mentioned chronicles can be picked from comment sections. This will be quite long.
The post on the spiritual husband prompted me to write this.
Let me give you an insight to my life,I am from a family of four,i.e mother,father and two children. I am the older sibling,with a younger brother.
When I was four my parents got separated,for reasons I don't know.
My dad,being a doting father,insisted on having his children stay with him. So my dad raised us. When I was 12,there was a reconciliation between my parents and my mum moved back in.
However,within the eight years of not having a mother because she was practically absent in my life. I had 2 step in moms that never lasted,I was molested severally by neighbours and my dad's worker. I was never fully penetrated but I was s3xually aware as early as age 7.
I got s3xually active at the age of 16,it was my only way of getting my much needed attention from the opposite sex,or so I believed. I was always craving for attention,my life and sanity depended on it. I had my first abortion at the age of 17,as well as 3 others by the age of 26.
I have lost count of how many s3xual partners I've had. All these,were never monetary based. While in the university,I was unavoidably sleeping around,I couldn't help myself. I tried but it felt like,that was the only way I could be noticed.
Then I met a guy,who got my contact based on my loose nature and needed company. At that point,I was already trying to help myself by myself,I couldn't talk to anyone about it,out of fear of being judged and castigated.
My new friend,took time out to know me we got really close and I sort of opened up to him,he helped me by making me invest all my emotions and cravings in him. I didn't want anyone else,although we were s3xually active,I never felt used or whorish. Maybe,I had genuine feelings for him.
Then came a time, I had a sober reflection of how my whole life had been,I was almost suicidal. I realised how much of myself I had lost. I couldn't feel anything anymore. I felt lifeless,then I cut all ties with everyone in my life,except for a few friends and my immediate family. This helped me in rediscovering myself. I made mistakes in between,got carried away once in a while but never for too long or too deep.
However,my experience had taught me a lot,some good,some not so good. I was really uptight,I stopped trusting,I became a lover of my own company,I invested time in developing myself amongst others. I was making great progress.
However,sometimes I get a flash of my past and it seems like I really can't make up for the lost time,it felt like all every man ever wanted from me was s3x. I believed that I had a sign post on my head that says'come and fuck me' because I couldn't understand how every man around me gets to be a dog,even my aunt's ( mother immediate elder sister of the same parent)her husband almost raped me.
Every male in my life except my father and brother and some really few ones always want to have a carnal knowledge of me.
Now,I am married,by some miraculous way(another story entirely), I wasn't even looking to be married but then it happened. I have not been able to quiet the voice that tells me that' I will end up like my parents,they are separated again. Although in good terms.' This voice tells me my husband is too good a person to end up with someone of my past. Yes it is all I the past,because I have found a place to forgive myself and i have a closer relationship with God,which has really helped In keeping my conscience in check.
My husband and I stay in different countries presently,I have a married male friend I really like,even more than my husband. But my conscience will never allow me cheat on my husband,I know he doesn't deserve such.
Now,the reason for all these is because my mum called me a week ago,telling me her pastor had a revelation that I have a spiritual husband and i need to come forth for deliverance. I attend a bible believing church and my faith doesn't lie with such acts. I told her to pray for me and i will also pray for myself. I know I have been doing it in my sleep for a very long time, I was bedwetting till the age of 27( once or twice a year)I have had over 50 bed partners ( most just once), every man that meets me wants to do it with me.
All these I know but I have taken a permanent refuge in God and I believe I am delivered. I don't think I have to go to a pastor to lay hands on me,or sprinkle water on me to deliver me.
I have never written or said all these to any living soul. I hope I find some good advice in the comments or replies. Thank you.
Stella please help me post where befitting.
*na wah ooooooo
😱😱😱😱😱😱😱.. Faints..
ReplyDeleteMy dear, there many souls with worse stories than yours. Don't you ever blame yourself but don't return to your past. Pray and fast, and you shall overcome your spiritual husband if it ever existed.
DeleteHmmmm. You need to pray against the voice you are hearing and say you are a reformed and new person
DeleteAre you born again? Have you confessed Jesus Christ as your Lord and saviour? If .Yes, read and understand 2 Corinthians 5:17, you are a brand new person who never existed before. Bombard your mind with the word of God and put the devil to check. Yes yiu don't need any deliverance as long as you are born again. Jesus Christ has delivered you, just continue to renew your mind with the word of God and hold on to the word. All things will work out for your good. God bless you
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Deletemy advice is to buy deliverance books from trusted ministries (i recommend MFM) and pray the prayers yourself, wake up at midnight for an hour and cry to God. continue to meditate on Gal 3:13, you are liberated from every curse, severe your umbilical cord and cut off from any foundational curse or chain and connect yourself with the blood of Jesus. do not stop until your life is the way you want it.
Deleteas for men always wanting you for sex, that one is not necessarily spiritual. men can easily see which woman is loose or desperate for marriage and they prey on them. work on your outward appearance, demeanor, utterances and the way you carry yourself.
all the best
You need only this
DeleteDeliverance
If not, you might cheat and sent packing. Jesus is waiting for you.
well advised @busy bee.
Delete@poster, pray,continue to pray and don't stop praying. keep away from that married male friend of yours to avoid breaking up another woman's marriage.
Only God can truly save. And if you are sure that you accepted him into your life, then you dont need to be afraid of any spiritual husband.
ReplyDeleteThis type goeth not away except by fasting and praying(which is mostly what genuine deliverance involves). Most demonic issues need more than just believing and having faith. You need to tackle it violently pls. You can go to mfm for deliverance
DeleteMy dear go to MFM for serious deliverance, it's not going to be a one time thing, trust me. Most people go through it but some start the process and end up tired and don't continue with prayers.
DeleteIf you don't go for the deliverance, you and that your married friend will eventually get down,and your marriage that happened by miracle might crash.
Deliverance is the sure way, with CHRIST helping you.
My dear go to MFM for serious deliverance, it's not going to be a one time thing, trust me. Most people go through it but some start the process and end up tired and don't continue with prayers.
DeleteIf you don't go for the deliverance, you and that your married friend will eventually get down,and your marriage that happened by miracle might crash.
Deliverance is the sure way, with CHRIST helping you.
Poster you need to work on your self esteem through counseling, prayers and reading books. Then learn to assert yourself by learning how to firmly say NO to the things you don't want. Abuse makes you feel like a cheap toy that can be used by anyone, but in Christ you are a new creature, old things have passed away. Fill your mind with the Word of God and meditate on it. Read and watch people like Joyce Meyer (who was abused), Derek Prince and Joel Osteen. Be positive always even when you don't feel like it. Try to forget the past and learn to be grateful for all the good things God is doing in your life. Make the Holy Spirit your friend. Before you know it, you will have moved forward. God bless you.
DeleteOh and before I forget, stay away from your married male friend whom you obviously have feelings for. Stay away from things that tempt you so that you don't have an excuse to fall. It is well.
DeleteBiko don't gbensh that your married guy oo, that's my own....
ReplyDeleteShe frankfort, frankcool, abi wetin, said distance does not separate people...'waris' this now? No be distance dey cause this aunty to catch feelings for another woman husband, just saying.
Not really. More of lack of communication I think. If a couple stay in a room and don't communicate or relate well, it would cause loneliness and give room for extramarital affairs.
Delete@poster: Trust in the Lord. it is well with your soul.
ReplyDeleteAbeg u need deliverance jor....which one b ur faith? Ur faith allows u to consider gbenshing another man's wife
ReplyDeleteIf you accept your weaknesses, then your problem is almost solved.
DeleteWow!
ReplyDeleteDear you need help and your mum is trying to. But sometimes in our quest for help we end up compounding the issues the more.
Keep praying for your self and ask God to reveal himself to you. If you have established a personal relationship with God, he will reveal some things to you through dreams.
First STOP listening to that voice. Your past is your pasted you will not dwell in it. Keep declaring positivity to yourself until you overcome.
Please look for a good church and go for that deliverance it is very important my dear and it is for your own good. If you can go to Anglican church ask for DHU unit it is genuine and clear no hidden thing there. I am a living testimony I will send my story to Stella when time permits me. Have open heart and do it God will perfect his wills in your life in Jesus name Amen.
ReplyDeletePlease send so we can learn. Stay blessed
DeleteO my God! Poster, please you really need to be totally free from all these stuff. The spiritual thing is most scary and needs urgent attention, if not, it will definitely come back to hurt u, ur partner and marriage in future
ReplyDeleteI know of someone who was told she'd never get married and any man who seeks her hand would die cause she had a spirit husband. A prophet/pastor told her bring over 100k with other requirements and come sleep in the church for deliverance, she was fair and beautiful to look upon. Short story she never went cause a close friend had a dream or revelation of what would happen to her if she went and funny thing is this friend didnt even know jack of what was going on in her life. She married that same year and has 2kids.
ReplyDeleteIf i hear say spirit husband dey anywhere😂😂😂
Sis please don't go, what you did in your past has been done before, you need to recognise that Christ has given it all for our sins and since you've acknowledged it, move on and leave your mama and that her pastor, its a lie from the pit of hell. But abeg no cheat on your man o. If God could give you a second chance at love then cherish it.
You have a church right? Why not speak to your own pastor. God separated you and healed your heart so what's all this? He who God has freed is truly free indeed. Ask God to reveal things to you.
ReplyDeleteMy dear, it's not about the number of guys you have f***ed. It's purely psychological. Shit is messing with your head. You have to confront your past demons, instead of keeping them locked inside your head. Cos, sometimes they manage to squeeze their face through a small gap and freak you out, that's what's going on from time to time with you. The voice , that voice that keeps telling you, you will never be good enough or amount to anything. Is a lie but you have to air your soul and clear your mind to be free. For as long as you continue to press down your supposed dark secrets , you will always be afraid.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know if I'm making sense cos I'm faded right now.
But talk to someone, anyone, you need to be told that you are ok and that you are no longer the person you were.
Just 50 guys?? Common!
Be careful of all these spiritualists though, they have a certain of compounding issues.
Maybe you should go to a priest for confession, tell all , do the penance. Lift the burden , air your soul.
I'm going back to bed, bye.
Sweetheart. You are fine. There is NOTHING wrong with you. The onlything wrong is YOUR MIND SET. How many 20 -30 year old males will judge themselves as you have just because he has slept with about 50 women. Infact he will even be disappointed that his count is too small.
ReplyDeleteYour bondage is mental and self judgement. What happened to self love and appreciation? We all have made our mistakes and learnd from them and the very heaven will not fall if we slip again. You will not sleep with that man! Not bcos of your husband not deserving it but because you need to master your self and not be a slave to your desires. You are strong and not weak. And remember my dear, should you fall, dont condem yourselve. Move on till you are better.
Sex is not the worst sin ever. I believe self heatred is the worst sin bcos the most important person on planet earth is you and when you fail at loving your self with your flaws and scares and imperfection, you can not love your neighbour as our Lord thaught us. So it begins with YOU. the way you judge yourself...judging another soul like that is terrible.
Pick yourself up and embrace yourself, celebrate yourself, make peace withe every single experience of ur life and move on. God has been on the throne watching over you even b4 u were concieved, through your experiences till today. He never slept so trust me, He loves you just the way you are. The only thing you need to do is Love yourself just a little bit more.
Please rule out seeing any pastor for any deliverance.
I for one can say I regret ever sampling so many girls when I was younger. Now married and never and won't ever cheat on my wife. Sleeping with too many partners is a huge problem for both sexes but only a few of us can sit back and find that we were wrong for ever going into such misadventure.
DeleteOk but your "regret" didnt bring you to the point of beliving you have spirit wife and need deliverance. You sinply moved on and decided never to do so again which is what i am adviseing her to do also. Move on and stop killing herself thinking she is possessed.
DeleteIt is also a comendable thing you have mastered that weakness i and advising her to.
This is deep.
ReplyDeletePoster keep praying and make sure you do not fall into temptation of sleeping with that married man.
Lol. Babe you don't have issues oh. Shey it's just about 50 guys? I'm 24 years and I've slept with more than 150 guys.I had sex with most of them raw, and I did 4 abortions. I got married last year and I have a son now, the beautiful thing is I don't have any sti or std. I've found Christ now and my past is my past. Please Stella if I'm not anonymous don't post.
ReplyDeleteYou say? Jesu
Deletei talk am,na bad girls dey enjoy beta tin.so b4 23 u don knack upto 150 guys con marry join? E be like sey i go drop good girl coz no epp anybody...
las las u will reap wat u sow via side chic coz i know sey u gbensh married men join
@Chi Dera, no be only you. I'm 31 now and I just keep asking myself what being a good girl has brought my way so far. I look at myself sometimes and I wonder why. After taking the time to work on myself and only dated not more than twice cos I just wanted to be the best version of me possible. Coming this far, I ask myself if it's been worth it when all the 'adventurous' girls don marry go.
DeleteIn all, it is well. I trust God still.
Wetin she sow? She tell u sey she brake anybody home? She has forgiven herslf and has found Christ meaning she is not proud of her past but love herslef nevertheless. This poster should do same.
DeleteMy dear, I no gbensh married men oh. Never did. And if my hussy wants to cheat, fine. I no get power abeg to dey think plenty.
DeleteHmmm
DeleteYou won’t mind your husband cheating on you, because you still cheat on him? Is that your reason? You didnt gbensh married men but you still gbensh ordained ministers? Is this true? I am not condemning you. I am happy you have given your life to God as you said. But my dear, stop sleeping with that ordained minister if you are still doing. Since you put to bed few months ago, I am not sure you still do. But don’t go back to it again. I am sure u are the person I think you are. You birthed your son in America few months ago. And you wedded in America too. Worst is you stayed in “his” brother’s house. Eyes dey see things. We dey see you. Take care dear and please don’t sleep with him again. Let d past be d past.
DeleteA proverb in Hausa when translated say: some people will dance and get sprayed with money, others will dance and chop better beating.
DeleteBabe you na pro. From good girl I decided to go the bad girl route na STI dem dash me straight. Had to borrow brain and go 🔙 to celibacy.i came to the conclusion that if you are good, dey good dey go. If u are bad dey bad dey go.
DeleteSince you are in another country, your mum including your pastor can pray for you without coming home. That voice telling you is the devil voice which must be silenced.
ReplyDeleteIf people can send evil across many seas to meet someone, nothing stops the pastor from doing that.
Your life is messed up and you really need to take Jesus Christ serious. Give yourself to midnight prayers.
Chai it is well with you. The one they brought to my Bishop had 4 spirit children. She herself knew. They are just too wicked.
The men you slept with came with their own spirit.
Truly you really need deliverance. Take the midnight prayers serious and read your Bible.
God will do wonders. It is well with you
Nigerians Spiritualise everything, you need a qualified therapist to speak to not deliverance.
ReplyDeleteI have never believed in spiritual husband and spiritual wife. Sorry, no entity has the power to interfere with our free will, not even God interferes with our free will. You used your free will to have sexual encounters, it does not mean you have a spiritual husband, it just means you chose to experience life through a different portal. You one day decided that you no longer liked that life and chose to experience life from a different place and have now settled down as a married woman. We are the judge, jury and executioners in our own lives. Even though you have moved on from your past, you still somehow feel that you got off too easy and you should be punished, these awful thoughts is your subconscious feeling that you do not deserve the life you have. You probably feel that how can a woman like you who could have lived so sordidly could end up with a kind and loving husband, you probably feel you are stealing some virgin girl's life. Life makes no promises to any of us, and there is no reward for anything, no matter what the religious will tell you that by doing so and so you will find favour with God it's all a lie. God is no respecter of persons, anybody can get anything irrespective of how they lived their life. For example, one person could have never work a day in their life and be a total asshole to everyone around them and still inherit life long wealth living like a king, another person can slave 12 hours a day, be an amazingly good human being and die in abject poverty and watch everyone they love suffer. Life is not an equation where by doing this, that, and what have you there is only one final solution, nothing like that. Accept your blessings and bask in your wonderful husband and feel every bit deserving of the life you now live, never let your mind try to come up with negative thoughts, it is all happening inside of you, so fix it from within. Nobody, no outside entity is punishing it is you who are seeking to punish yourself because you feel undeserving of anything good.
ReplyDeleteCongratulate yourself for speaking your truth, you were a child who looked for love in all the wrong places due to your parents divorce and your need to feel needed. You made wrong choices. But as you said you are now married.
ReplyDeleteYou have the power to change all the voices in your head - What you focus on, grows, so you are the only one that can change your story. Get the right people in your space - Your past is not your destiny.
Have a sincere conversation with your parents on how their divorce affected you so you can all heal
As for the pastor - DON'T GO, Prayers changes things
Omg... People saying just 50!!!
ReplyDeleteGod...
Who and what is or are the reason(s) for this moral decadence? Parents, the child , society or social media.
Indeed I am in shock
Shock for 50? That means If u read the first anonymous post, na electrocution you go experience naa.
DeleteRelax b4 u have a heart attack with all the "i am in shock".
DeleteWe are not the same. Our experiences, gene, and personality are not the same. You could be a virgin or slept with just 2 yet you cold be a wicked, envious, lying criminal. A blatant prostitute with a body count of over 300 could have a heart of gold, selfless, loving and never hold a grudge.
Sex is not the worst sin there is my dear.
You are right and the lady who said she slept with 150 guys in the past and now has a good man is deserving of him.
Deleteshe has already given her life to Christ for old things as passed away. Now in the eye of the Lord there's no difference between her and a virgin anymore, she is a new creation.
Dear poster, from your write-up, I believe you found your breakthrough all by yourself and found God at the best part of it all. You drew closer to him and he accepted you wholly. That being said, I challenge you to take charge of your dream world like I did when I was in Junior high school and still bedwetting. Control what happens in your dreams, be the boss but take God along with you. Your dreams are yours to control. You see a man in your dream wanting sex, kill him. This is not a joke. I don't have nightmares because once I spot anything scary or uncomfortable in my dream, I attack it with aggravated assault and force and I take charge. Do same. About you and a married friend, cut ties with him gradually. That's Satan luring you out to the market square to naked you (do not ruin your testimony). Like the Bible said we should flee from every appearances of evil. Never like any man, not even your own father more than your husband. Deliver us from temptations. Good day.
ReplyDeleteWell said.
DeleteVery true @ taking charge of ur dreams. I realised i have done this on to types of dreams i used to have. I am so good at it that when i see food in my dream i actually say it that kai, this food looks good but this is a dream so i dont want. Or a particular face that used to harass me in the dream. When i see him comining my dream i quickly arm myself and run toards him. Lol
DeleteThats what it means to take charge and not be a victim of your past, your desires or your dream.
🤣🤣🤣 killing thinz!!!
DeleteHmm..... i dey fight oh, for my dream. One night I had a dream, i drove a beautiful car and went to a fancy supermarket to pick stuff. I picked varities of stuff, and the man at the counter told me to rush home and enjoy my goodies. As i commot wan enter car, i saw uniformed men directing a stranger to leave with my car. Hehehehehehe. (And in real life I usually dont like people driving my car). I just ran and opened the door and hijacked the steering, turned off engine, dragged the guy out, gave him serious blows, and warned him seriously never to try that rubbish with me. Do you know the guy was just laughing and saying: sorry na... sorry no vex... you dey vex like this? Shuoo..... The uniformed guys were now begging me that they didnt mean to let someone get into my car that they are sorry. Thats how I angrily loaded my boot and zoomed off.
When I woke up I was sweating profusely and my hands were hurting. I dey fight for dream well well oh.... who devil wan use play for this kind recession?
Poster, kill them in the dream. I agree totally and it starts with hot prayers. So by the time you fall asleep, you will be angry in your spirit. Dont accept any rubbish dream.
You dey vex sha 🤣🤣 see as the chronicle pain you. E say: "Good day" 🤣🤣🤣 na debate? Chaaii 🤣🤣
DeleteOld things have passed away and all things have become new. Poster if u have given ur life to Jesus, there's no need for u to be bothered about ur past. But it's left for u to decide if u want to visit the pastor or not
ReplyDeleteI so much love the part where you said your conscience won't let you cheat on your hubby... Kudos that's a good one.
ReplyDeleteNow why not fight the "supposed" hubby by praying more and asking a therapist. Avoid all those yahoo yahoo pastors mbok.
Thats even the part i dont like. So without ur husband you cant control yourself?
DeleteYour past is in the past... Don’t let it drag you back.
ReplyDeleteDon’t let your parent’s situation define your thoughts.
Stay away from that married friend you seem to like so much especially since you don't stay in the same country with your husband.
Pray for youself.. Don’t compound issues by going to any prophet.
You need counselling and therapy, your story is quite common from people who felt abandoned by a parent or parents. It’s actu common the traits you listed. Find a good therapist to get counselling from.
ReplyDeleteYou need to talk to a therapist,regain your self esteem and see yourself as a precious being.No man sees you as a sex thing it's just the way and manner you've wired your mind.God loves you.
ReplyDeleteIt’s so sad. Good girls can’t find men, the wayward ones find and then they start messing around. God help us.
ReplyDeleteNIce to know that you are "close to God"; a Christian I understand.
ReplyDeleteAll you need to do is to deepen this communion with God via the acts of Grace; Acts.2:47 -personal bible studies, praying (with fasting on a regular basis), breaking of bread/communion and fellowship.
Please be very careful about visiting "pastors" before they get added to the lists of "every man that sees you want to sleep with you or rape you . . ."
You did not state why you are "in different country from your husband". My advice is to be together. I have been married for more than a decade and I once stayed away from my family for a few months and I do not wish anybody to ever experience that. That "male friend" should be distanced from your life if you want to enjoy/retain the peace of God that you now have. As long as your husband is away, it is a matter of time before the obvious rears its head. All the best.
Thank God for making you speak out and seek more counsel. Hopefully, you can sift through & discard all the chaff & feed your mind & spirit only with His wheat. JESUS CHRIST healed & also cast out demons from people. These people came to JESUS because they believed in Him already. Many were healed after having first heard Him preach, sometimes over a stretch of three days, etc. They believed in Him. They had heard the Word. (& from The Word Himself, no less.) They still needed personal, one-on-one healing ministration, personal one-on-one deliverance ministration, afterwards, from JESUS. Some people come to CHRIST & their salvation experience is that they are instantly delivered from drug use, smoking, masturbation, alchoholism, homosexual/lesbian urges & lifestyle, etc, etc. Others, it is a gradual process. Others, it is a sudden, all-at-one event which occurs days, weeks, months or years after their initial salvation. Some experience healing & deliverance through personal prayer & fasting, holding on to God's Word; some whilst at a programme or whilst watching or listening to a programme on tv or radio. Our lives, destinies & purpose for which we were created are not the same & the same God works differently in & with each of us. You do need deliverance. There is almost no one who comes to CHRIST who doesn't. Be it from anger, fear, greed/gluttony, uncontrollable lying, lust, suicidal thoughts, depression, demonic oppression, spirit spouse/sex in dreams, evil dreams, persistent loss of breakthroughs/blessings, cycles of false accusations, recurring evil trends/cycles/patterns, etc, or from the effects of evil foundation such as had been yours. People are blaming you. They don't see the efforts you have made & are making to recover the glorious destiny that was stolen from you & to be separated permanently from the evil script switched on you whilst you were but an innocent, helpless child. You don't know what led to your parents' separation. That has both spiritual & psychological lasting effects. You were severally molested as an innocent little child. Know that all these violations bring with them a transference of spirits, and you know for sure, it is not the Holy Spirit. These are destructive spirits. Spirits whose sole mission is to "steal, kill, and destroy." If you don't believe this (even after all you have come through), if you haven't before now, pay attention to the high majority of people in the lgbtq lifestyle who say that they were molested/abused/raped once or repeatedly by someone of the same gender as children or teens or adults, & even as adults (young or mature), even though the experience was non-consensual & traumatic, afterwards, for the first time in their lives, they began experiencing same-sex urges & eventually lived/live that life. It is also a known fact that a majority of people who experience sexual abuse either as children or adults become (very) promiscuous, & exhibit any number of new behaviours such as lying, stealing, depression, mood swings, addiction/addictive behaviour, low self esteem, etc even if they had been normal, mature, well-adjusted, trustworthy, individuals & professionals beforehand. There are things science can explain & help; & there are things it cannot. Otherwise, science would be God. No man is an island. There is a reason CHRIST made us members each of one Body. We need each other. There are some things God will do for us directly, one-on-one, & there are some things God will only do for us through others. God sent His prophet to the brook Cherith & was sending ravens to fly in his breakfast & dinner daily. The same God dried up the brook & sent the same prophet (Elijah) to go live with & be fed by someone, another human being, a widow in Zarephath living with her only child, a son.
ReplyDeleteI commented as delightdivine888. No "Unknown".
DeleteGo for deliverance. Be grateful to God you have a mother such as He has blessed you with; a mother such as the one who sought out & humbled herself before JESUS CHRIST for the sake of her daughter's deliverance, happiness & peace.
DeleteBe careful, however, to go only to reputable ministries such as MFM, who specialise in deliverance, who carry it out in small groups, conducted like a church service (praise, worship, Word/teaching, prayer points, etc), who conduct it openly in a section of the Sanctuary/Church Auditorium, who have both male and female deliverance ministers attending, & it is same-gender ministers who touch same-gender counselees, & whose sessions hold from morning till early afternoon or noon. PLEASE GO TO THE HEADQUARTERS OF MFM.
Do not go for private ministration with any pastor, man or woman. Do not go for ministration in anyone's home. Do not go for ministration at night or overnight unless it is a group vigil at a reputable ministry. Do not go to small and/or out of the way parishes even of reputable ministries. Do not drink anything strange, rub anything strange on your body, let anyone of either gender touch you inappropriately for any reason or accept any practice you cannot Biblically support.
Before, during and after deliverance, feed your soul & spirit VORACIOUSLY, CONSISTENTLY & CONSTANTLY on the Word of God. This is the duty of every Christian. Seek and cultivate and DWELL/ABIDE in the Presence of God daily. This is the duty of every Christian.
Be wise. Like anyone free from a former destructive lifestyle or illness, AVOID/FLEE FROM people, places, habits, things, practices, etc that will in one way or other lead to or bring back it all back. Former drug addicts avoid & cut off former drug friends, dealers, even family as need be, crack joints, clubs, streets, neighbourhoods, parties, leave jobs, accommodation, etc where they could be tempted, block phone numbers, leave names, car licence plate numbers, even photographs with security at their gates of permanently unwelcome people whom access must NEVER be granted to. How badly do you NEED (not merely want) to be free? Cut off & stay away from that married friend & anyone & anything you "like" more than your husband except God; and ask God to help you to completely & truly LOVE your own husband & vice versa & to bring your marriage to a place where you and your husband can share ALL your secrets with each other & find only pure, complete love and acceptance "both naked and unashamed."
God bless you.
To God be the glory.
delightdivine888
Madam,have you heard of generational evil pattern, inherited spirit spouse and yokes? Your exposure to several 3xual partners(although not your fault but circumstances) and your inability to explain why most men that comes around you wants to have carnal knowledge of you and the strange voice telling you that you would end up like your parents is a pointer that there's a link you need to disconnect from.
ReplyDeleteLusting and loving another man more than your husband is another pointer that you have to sever that link. Uncontrollable sexual urge, perversions are all signs of marine links.
You need deliverance but it's not mandatory to meet a Pastor to pray for you. You have the Word of the Living God, use it to call upon Him to deliver you. Spirit husband can mess someone up. God bless you.
Dear poster go and sin no more.
ReplyDeleteAlways cover your self with blood of Jesus. And surround yourself with the fire of the holy ghost before you sleep at night.
Poster don't go for any deliverance. None of all these fake ass "pastors" can do anything for you. There's nothing none of them can do but try to worsen your case by sleeping with you and threatening u, or even extorting u. Don't open your mouth and confide in any man with a dick that says he's a pastor o. They'll low key turn you to their ashawo o.
ReplyDeleteAll you need is seeing a psychologist and getting therapy. It's all in your head it's nothing spiritual. Don't let Nigerian "religion slaves" deceive u. Pls take my advise don't tell any "man of God" your story they will deceive u and sleep with u more.
Unknown@22:24 And other good counselors God bless. My question is why take the word of a mother who left her 4 year old daughter to the vagaries of this world only to reappear with a diagnosis and a suspicious solution in form of a personal deliverance “pastor”. Did she fight to keep her daughter? There is a reason for giving custody of girls that age to their mother in most divorce battles. I know Naija home video guys just ask a wife of 10 years to pack and she leaves with only a suitcase ( all her silverware, appliances and other things presumably don’t exist)! Considering what one reads about these one to one “Pastors”, be careful. I know mothers are supposed to be idolized in our culture but few mothers are toxic and are behind the travails of their children. Also, please be aware that sex isn’t a physical act only, it is a spiritual activity and if you sleep with 1, or 10 or 20, you are joining yourself spiritually to them and you do need prayer and fasting with genuine repentance. Any short cut is a lie. You will have a turbulent marriage otherwise.
ReplyDeleteMy question is “ why live apart from your husband”? You know your weakness, why live apart from each other? Someone like you needs to be beside your husband every night. It’s a fact. Lead us not into temptation is part of The Lord’s Prayer and you and that married guy are going somewhere though he may or may not know it but you are sensing it. Flee from every appearance Of evil.
For those who have been “good girls “ and who feel forgotten, God will give you your reward soon. Don’t stop being good. It’s darkest before midnight. The patient dog still eats the fattest bone. As many body counts as folks have, that is the multiplication of their issues unless God commands deliverance “upon their Jacob”. Sex is spiritual and the enemy knows it so he dispatched the holly/nolly wood and porn spirits to compound people’s ancestral issues.
Poster, take the advice of Anon 22:24.